Venting autistic foid rant

[Beatriceparasite]

I’ve been ltb -mtb all my life. Growing up I always thought I ugly but I still had guys that had crushes on me. But unfortunately I am autistic.
So I don’t understand love and crushes at times. Now that I’m older I kind of do but I feel so behind in life. All my friends have boyfriends.
Or have a crush. I’ve just never felt that. I’ve always felt unworthy of love. I mean for one instance in 1st grade this guy he was mtn tall and had a crush on me I didn’t understand and I just ignored it and continued being friends with him.
I now realize how hurtful that might’ve been to him. Another time in 6th grade this htn who was 5’10 had a crush on me. I tried to be normal about it but I didn’t know how to handle or act about it.

I liked him too and people thought we were dating. But when he told me I just froze and stared at him.
I don’t know in the end what have I learned. Am I doomed to always be alone? Reply with what you think

 

[Beatriceparasite]

Your describing something that is completely avoidable, I understand where your coming from but obviously your not doomed to be alone as your in a better position with dating then literally everyone else here assuming we're all men and not chads. I am in a somewhat similar position to you (or whatever the male equivalent to it is) though so I do get it.

Hm yeah I think I just need to keep searching I was kind of moody writing this being in puberty and all. But thanks for your point of view. It helped more than you think. Your right I should just count my blessings